After four long years I am finally moving out of my current season which required me to be still. I was literally bed ridden, and could not travel. Mentally I was in a tough position, because I have always been on the go, and when I was on the go I didn’t have to work on my past. I didn’t have to think about years of pain in my heart. Being still forced me to think about the physical and sexual abuse I endured. Being still forced me to rely on God to work things out in my marriage, which was at the time in reconciliation mode. Being still taught me how to be strong and stand on my own two feet. Being still taught me what healthy is really about. Being still taught me appreciation for every God given ability I could and could not use at the time. Being still taught me to rely on my family.
The most important thing about being still I learned was that I have no control over anything, and I was giving control to all the wrong things. I should’ve been giving it all to God. Being still showed me how weak I was, but it also showed me how strong in God I could be. Being still gave me a chance to learn obedience and also gave me the opportunity to become a leader in the church. Being still no longer feels like a burden, as a matter of fact I feel like I received wings. I feel free, because while I was still the Lord worked on my heart and set me free from the bondage of sin. Being still set me free.
Exodus 14:14 (NIV)
The Lord will Fight for you; you need only to be still.
The Holy Bible, new international version. (2011). Grand Rapids: Zondervan Publishing House.