Back in October Travis noticed white patches on the inside of his cheek. He thought maybe he had discoloration going from using e-cigs and laid off a bit from using the e-cigs to help him while he quit smoking. By the time November came and the patch got bigger and started to feel like he had a callous on the inside of his mouth. Travis made an appointment to have the patch checked out.

That day the doctor was sure the patch looked like stage one cancer and wanted a biopsy. We were concerned then and asked for prayer and boy an out pour came in from friends and our daughter Sadie’s school. We felt peace. By Christmas we received the biopsy report and Trav did not have leukoplakia rather he had inflamed cells. More than likely from an auto-immune disease. The ENT prescribed him what they call “Magic Mouth Wash” and sent him on his way. It was a miracle by all accounts.

Travis had been tested for several auto-immune diseases and they all came back negative. The doctor went above and beyond and tested him for Lime Disease. Every test came back negative. The consensuses was that this is a fluke and some thing Travis will have to live with. By April we were back at the doctor because both sides now had the white callous patches. We knew it was not anything serious and were told to keep an eye on it.

For two weeks now Travis has had sores on the right side of his mouth on top of the white callous patch. Travis kept insisting they were canker sores and the canker sores are so painful he can hardly drink water. I called the doctor this past Monday and told the receptionist what was going on and they scheduled Trav in for an emergency appointment the next day super early in the morning.

At the appointment the doctor kind of panicked. What ever is going on inside Trav’s mouth was not canker sores. The doctor went over past reports of everything ruled out including the biopsy which were all clear except for the fact Travis’s biopsy results came back inflamed cells on his cheek. Our doctor started repeating himself “I don’t know what to do. I really don’t know what to do.” I think he saw the fear I had and kind of snapped back in work mode and decided to start a plan of action.

The doctor took a culture to rule out anything viral. From there he is scheduling another biopsy. For the pain he gave Trav a liquid lidocaine solution to swish and hold on the sore spot for a couple minutes and it will numb the area, making it easier for Trav to eat and drink.

In the spirit of “keeping it real” I’m just going to say it. I’m scared my husband has oral cancer. Now before we get into what the bible says about fear; and maybe you’ll use this fear as a gage to measure how deep my walk with Christ is; or pull the infamous “words have power don’t call this on him” card I just want to say God bless you.

“We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed.”
—2 Corinthians 4:8-9

With this being said, although I have fear I’m not consumed. I know who the God Trav and I worship is and I also know we all have a story from a hand we are all dealt. Just because l have fear doesn’t mean I doubt God’s sovereignty and that fear will keep me from doing what I gotta do and press forward. I’ve lived a good portion my life in fear without God and I’ll never shut down and go back. I fear because I know how blessed I am and how good we have it in our marriage.

“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.”
—1 Peter 5:5-7

In the spirit of faith I want to reassure you my walk with Christ is deep and with that being said I want to ask all of you to pray for my family and I. I am reminded every day how blessed we are to have a God that loves us in all of our imperfections. We are so blessed that with the power of God, Trav and I, are able to work together to eradicate many curses that plague both sides of our families.

For me, I am so blessed to have Travis. I thank you Father God that you turned Travis into this wonderful father and amazing husband and I cherish every moment of every day. We don’t fight. We decide together on everything. He prays for us and his duty of a father and a husband doesn’t stop at the paycheck he makes. He comes home and continues his roles. I believe your plans exceed any fear and any sickness so I am asking you God for a healing. I am claiming a healing in your name father God. Amen!

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
—Philippians 4:6-7